McBee Dynasty’s Steven McBee addressed his apology to ex Allie Eklund, admitted that he “failed” and said he’s now “kicking myself” for what he did. He’ll also be entering an intensive retreat.
Last month, after Stagecoach Festival, Steven said he received many DMs, phone calls, and videos from anonymous accounts and acquaintances claiming that his then-girlfriend Allie acted inappropriately at the festival and afterparty with another man.
Steven then posted messages and videos alleging that she cheated. Allie later reshared the video he claimed to have received of her, while she explained that she was with her “longtime friends.” The video didn’t appear to show anything damaging. Drew Dodson, a man in the video who, according to Steven, was her cheating partner, wrote on Instagram, “I was at Stagecoach with a big group of friends including someone I’ve known for years.”
Later on, Allie leaked alleged messages from Steven using offensive language to her as he accused her of cheating. His other ex, Calah Jackson, shared more screenshots of his alleged offensive messages from the past.
“I have apologized to both of them,” said Steven in an interview with Us Weekly, seemingly referring to his two exes. “[I’ve] apologized publicly to them. Understand that I can only control myself in this world. Again, it doesn’t matter what the situation is. I’m only in control of me, and I have failed multiple times now.”
“Obviously, this has been a situation where, you know, there are multiple instances of this happening and just recognizing that this is not okay,” said the star of his past failings. “I feel like I have improved, but not enough. I mean, this was a major, major, major step backwards this week.”
Steven said he wants to “fix this” and “be better.”
“Because I want to have a family, have my family grow up in a household that is safe emotionally,” he said. “[The] words and verbalizing language [that I use] when I’m upset, you know, that’s really tough to come back from. It’s not okay. … I’m kicking myself, and I have been all week.”
“I am embarrassed, humiliated for myself, my family,” he added. “I handled it poorly, without a doubt.”
But Steven said the video Allie shared was “the most innocent” and “doesn’t tell the full story,” as he claimed there’s additional footage. The star, however, said he doesn’t plan on releasing the other videos.
“I don’t want to drag this out anymore,” he claimed. “This is about someone else and their decisions… I can only control myself. … There’s no excuse or justification. … I do have an anger problem — I’ll be the first to admit it. The result of my actions has me in the situation I’m in today.”
Steven said he’s been in therapy for three years on and off, and he’s had weekly sessions consistently for the last half year. But he thinks this isn’t enough.
“This week really brought to light that I need to take additional steps,” he said. “It’s about breaking the family cycle of trauma. … The anger, the high-intensity emotions that I have, it’s something that I’ve experienced growing up. I hate to say it’s genetic or passed down, but I saw it growing up. And I don’t want to say it became the norm because I know that’s not OK. But it’s harder to break the cycle than I thought.”
He told the outlet he’ll be doing an intensive trauma retreat for six days to address emotional patterns connected to his upbringing.
“I’ve got to figure out how to take a breath when things are at their worst,” he went on. “[I wish I would have] put my phone down, walked away, and come back with a clear head. … Ten minutes before I left for the airport [after exiting the festival], we were talking about getting married. … And then 12 to 16 hours later, everything just broke loose.”
Steven said he’d be willing to have a private talk with Allie, and a potential reconciliation isn’t off the table. But he expressed that this would require rebuilding trust on both ends.
“There would be a lot of steps,” he explained. “I honestly have no idea what happens from here. … I haven’t given any thought to [dating other people]. I’m still in love with Allie and focused on bettering myself.”
“I understand the weight of what I said [about her],” continued Steven, who said he needs to also apologize to his exes and Allie’s family. “I’ve apologized, and I mean that.”
But the star said his own family has helped him.
“When I come back down from that emotional high, it’s like, ‘What was I just doing?’” he went on. “That guilt is overwhelming. … I will not let my life be remembered for this. … I will come back from this. I will be better for this.”
He hinted that fans will see the relationship play out this next season.
“It’s going to be really hard,” he said. “I was excited to watch our relationship … and now everything has changed. … I’m going to come back from this, I’m doing the work to make sure it never happens again.”